To go, or not to go?

In the big scheme of things, I have not been alive very long. My life has only been a blip on the radar. Though it's only been almost 21 years, I have begun to realize that I have made some pretty big decisions. 

Living with Mom / Living with Dad

High School Arts / High School Sports

Following Christ / Living in Darkness

Going to College / Not Going to College

  Going to SCC / Going to DBCC

- Relationships, Car Purchases, Associations, Ministry, Picking a University.

All of the above were/are things that I'm having to decide on. Go or don't go, which way do I go, buy or don't buy? Everyday I'm having to decide and live with the effects of whatever I may choose. 

I'm extremely happy where I'm at in my life. I have had so many blessing along the way. God has definitely anointed my path and is holding me through everything. There are things in which I could have made better decisions. I am where I am and I'm glad that I have become the person I am in Christ. 

These last few weeks I have been in the middle of the introduction to my new world called USF. I love it by the way. In the mist of my new room, new city, classes, workplace, church, and lifestyle, I have been mulling over a new decision that I suppose wasn't even on the back burner. I've had so much going on that this deal was in a glad ware container in the fridge. 

Do I apply to work for Student Life (SL) this year, or go home and work, try out for football, take summer classes, or a number of other things? Through much prayer, discussion with Kelli, a few church services and reading the word I came to the conclusion that I should go. This isn't easy for me. I'm leaving a lot of things to go do this. I'm sure that I will be ready for a slice of home after being here for 4 months. I would be able to have a restful summer with Kelli, see my family and my friends. But something deep inside of me can't pull from the fire that I have to be a part of the work SL does. 

(for all those who don't know Student Life is a Christian organization that is based out of Alabama. They go around all summer long putting on week long camps for youth groups. Their camps are phenomenal and travel all across the country. Their prices are the lowest around and they are still growing. I worked with them last winter in a Ski camp setting and I had an amazing experience. But it was hard. Hard to be away from home. Hard to load and unload in 6 degree weather. All the same I will never be the same having had that time in my life to serve. ) 

I was praying, I felt God leading me to go, (or at least to pursue and he will take care of the rest) and immediately the devil was after me. Now that I have thought about my attacks, I have realized it's a confirmation. You can always tell how much good is going to get done by the amount of spiritual warfare that goes on before hand. 

What makes me share this is the things that I was being hit with. Now people say that I never audibly hear god speak, or the devil for that matter. I have heard both but it's not such an audible thing, as it is a process in which my thoughts have been very specifically turned to what I feel either God or the devil is wanting me to do or think. This time it has been the devil telling me that I'm not good enough to serve on the student life team. These thoughts wold come out of nowhere. (other than the pit of hell) I found myself thinking this during a worship service which was not usual for me at all. It was terrible to keep returning to this lie. while praying, while talking about God, while putting on Christian shirts, while typing my last post. 

So I thought that I my hunt for some scripture and hear a better word from the God of the Universe. 

-2 Cor 12: 9-10 "My Grace is sufficient for you, for power is perfected in weakness." Therefore, I will most gladly boast all the more about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may reside in me. So because of Christ, I am pleased in weaknesses, in insults, in catastrophes, in persecutions, and in pressures. For when I am weak, then I am strong. 

-Col 1: 19-22 "For God was pleased to have all His fullness dwell in Him, and through Him to reconcile everything to Himself by making peace through the blood of His cross- whether things on earth or in heaven." And you were once alienated and hostile in mind because of your evil actions. But how He has reconciled you by His physical body through His death, to present you holy, faultless, and blameless before Him

Rom - 8:37- 39 "For I'm convinced that neither death nor life, nor angels nor rulers, nor things present, nor things to come, nor powers, nor height, nor depth, nor any other created thing will have the power to separate is from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord!"

 "The beauty of grace is that it makes life not fair." - Reliant K 

 God loves us without end and we desires us to serve him in his love. I am holy in Christ and wholly worthy to serve as a part of the Student life team. Th God be all Glory and Honor!

 

He is ALIVE!!!! 

So I go and I proclaim his name and I never allow the devil to get at me with his lies again.