PAIN!!!

The Lord in his infinite wisdom allows us to be lowered in to the pit. As Psalm 88 says, even the lowest part of the pit. We are counted as dead, cask out, despised by many. Allowed to be made detestable in the eyes of men. For what? Why is it my pain that God uses? Why is it my loneliness that will allow me to see him? Why do I feel like I've been let down? I lay alone with nothing around me. Even the walls in this room seem miles away. The bed on which I lay is cold and hard, without compassion and not giving rest. My heart aches, my mind plans for the day's, weeks and years to come, but not even the next minute seems to arrive. The world around me is moving at a thousand miles per hour in a million different direction with no end in sight. Why will no one bring me with them? Why will God not allow me to go with them. I've yearned for you will my flesh and my soul. My body aches from loneliness. How dare I go through pain when I've praised your name, how dare I be put at the lowest place in the pit when I have famed your name? How dare you give me this burden? How DARE YOU!!!! 

My temptation is to end there, But GOD be glorified!!! HOW DARE GOD?!?!?! How dare GOd indeed!!! How dare him give to us what he promised? Life more abundant!!! How dare him use us? How dare him allow his praise to raise even from the depths of the pit!!! PRAISE BE TO GOD ALMIGHTY. GREAT THINGS YOU ARE DOING, GREAT THINGS YOU HAVE DONE, AND GREAT THINGS YOU WILL DO!!! MY "PROBLEMS" ARE OPPORTUNITY TO GIVE YOU GLORY!!! BE HERE AND USE ME NOW!!! WHETHER THROUGH PAIN, GLADNESS OR DEATH!!! 

How dare I expect from you anything shorter than yourself for me?